When You See That Negative...

When you're going through infertility, you see negative pregnancy tests all the time. What do you do? How should you react? Do you give up hope? Do you keep going?

Well I can tell you that I have seen a lot of negatives! And yes it's hard every single time. What I usually do is cry. It's ok to cry! It's healthy and for me it really helps to get that pain out. I cry to get those sad feelings out and then I pick myself back up to try again. Now you don't have to cry if you don't want, a lot of women don't. And I don't always cry, usually it's just those months where I really thought I was finally pregnant. I can't tell you how to react because we all will react differently, some women will get mad, some will cry, and some will be fine. It really is up to you how you react.

One thing I think you should never do is give up hope! I did that once and it was the worst few months of my life! During those few months, I was angry, at myself, at my loving Heavenly Father, and at my husband too. I stopped praying, I lost my desire to try to have kids, and I was extremely depressed! It took me awhile to climb out of that pit and to ask for forgiveness. I slowly began to pray again, and when I began to pray and ask forgiveness I slowly became happier. To climb out of that depression was amazing!! Throughout it all I knew I still wanted kids and when I finally was out of that depression I began to have hope again! I gained my desire to try to have kids back! Yes it's still hard but I cling to that hope with my whole heart! That is why I'm telling you to never lose hope!! It's so much easier to hold on to the hope than it is to let it go and lose it.

Over the time that my husband and I have been TTC, I stopped taking pregnancy tests. My cycle is regular enough that we decided to save money on the tests so that we could use it for procedures to help us get pregnant. Now my negative pregnancy test is when my period begins. If it's late, then I take a test but that's a very rare occurrence.

Someday (and hopefully that someday is soon), I will see that positive! And those of you who have been TTC will someday see one too! Never give up hope! I want all of you reading this, whether you've been TTC for awhile, just beginning your journey, or even if you aren't TTC. I want each of you to never give up hope! Don't ever lose sight of your dreams, whatever they may be! For they will be achieved someday!

Til next time!
Becca